a little blog love...

wow...it has been a full year today that i started this blog. who knew how much a blog could change one's life? when i first decided to tiptoe into blog land, i thought i would post a few pictures, write a few lines captioning them. that's it. easy.

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mostly at the beginning, my blog made me feel like i was creating something for myself, and most importantly for my children to look back on one day. i have never been really good about documenting in baby books, writing letters, and saving little keepsakes. basically, i felt guilty and extremely overwhelmed at trying to get it going. so i felt pride and satisfaction at having started what i like to now call my 'digital diary.' a diary that i will have bound and printed into a book. a keepsake to pass along to my children.

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i never imagined that this simple blog could make such positive changes in my life. changes that have made me better in so many ways. i see things in way now that i never did before. i notice the little things. i see the beauty in simple, often overlooked details ofeveryday life and everyday.

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in how i write my blog, i have chosen to share the things that make me happy, the things that make us a stronger family,me a better mother, sister, wife, daughter, friend, role-model,...

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at the end of each day or week, when i am deciding what to write, i think about what i want to remember-what i want my children to know about their mommy and daddy. i want them to know how much we adored and loved them. i want them to know about me. my likes, dislikes, what i hold important. i want them to see photographs of not only themselves, but their friends, family, and all the people in their lives that play an importan role because i truely believe that it 'takes a village.'

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i love that at the end of the day (or week) when i think about what i want to share with all my blogging buddies and regardless of what kind of day or week i have had...the good, bad, and ugly,

i almost always choose the good stuff because that is the stuff i want to remember.

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the stuff that makes me want to fall to my knees and thank god for giving me such a wonderful life with such wonderful and healthy kids. for giving me a husband that wants to spend time with his babies right after a long and tiring day in a stressful market-the kind of stressful that if i had to work in his line of work, would have me running home to a bottle of wine and my king size bed. the stuff that makes me thank my lucky stars for my family that is not near me, but who i still get to communicate with on the phone. the stuff that makes me grateful for true and genuine friends-friends that have become my family. the stuff that just plain makes me laugh, makes me happy, makes me want to be a better person, to set healthy

examples and feel empowered them.

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i love my little space in blog land. i treasure it. i love adding to it. i love learning and being inspired by so many others. i love that when i need to, i can share hurts or concerns without ever having to pick up the phone and have a small but important support system that is here...for me and my family when i need them most.

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today for me, was the perfect close to an out-of-sorts week. lots of good stuff today. good, good stuff. lots of laughter, a few happy tears, retail therapy, and lots and lots of dancing! yes, dancing... the out of breath, clumsy, booty-shakin' kind. the this-right-now-is makin'-all-things- better- kind of fun with. the healing kind!!!!!

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and tonight as i was rocking my both of my babies to sleep about an hour past their bedtime...i lightly rested my head on beckham's fluffy little soft pillows for cheeks while peyton brushed her tiny fingers up and down my arm. i sang them the song i made up for them years ago. just as i thought both of them had fallen asleep beckham popped his sweet little head up, startling me a bit, and said,

"i want to dance, mama! PLEEESE!"

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how did he know that his silly mama was a dancin' fool only this afternoon?!

so at ten o'clock at night...we danced. only for a minute, but it was fun and it made us all laugh.

i love giving them little gifts like that and then i like to think to myself that i am a pretty cool mom indeed.

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so at the end of the day...life is sweet and things are really, really good.

so with this little celebratory blog post coming to an end, i am off to finish watching the sex in the city movie. i realize that i need to find my box of extra soft kleenex, because this week has been a long and meaningful one, filled with ups and downs that have challenged my little tear ducts to turn into little overflowing baths of water... and i know my favorite part of the movie is coming up and i will quietly tear up while admiring the camera angles, the vivenne westwood wedding gown while listening to the violin and piano that will take turns tugging at my heartstrings...happens every time and i love it!

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xoxo

i can not wait to see what will be written on my blank canvas of the next year of this little ole blog.

happy anniversary to my

life is like a box of chocolates!!!!