that first step into the blogsphere (i think i made that up) was a scary one. vulnerable and just plain weird.
will people read it? do i even want people to read it? what if people laugh at my grammar errors? what if people laugh at the stupid stuff i write? maybe i should keep it private?
case in point...my first post is here.
i guess i learned about myself that i simply didn't mind much what others thought about my blog. i mean, actually i cared lots, but not enough to stop writing in it. i would defend it and all of its crazy fluffiness to my family who, at times, thought i was a crazy person that had taken over the body, mind and soul of their daughter and sister.
however, anyone who blogs i am sure can understand all of the blessings and healing it can bring upon one's life.
"Find the good. It's all around you. Find it. Showcase it. And you'll start believing it." Jesse Owens.
i really believe that when you look for the bad...you WILL find and see the bad. more importantly however, i know that when you look for the good and beautiful, you WILL find the good and beautiful.
life. it can be ugly and we can choose to only see the ugliness. OR we can make the choice to see the beautiful. it is a choice. a choice that we all have to make each day. do i see the beautiful in everyday? yes, i do. and this is what i choose to write about even though i know lots of ugly too.
i live the ugly stuff too, however, most of the time, i am sure i don't want to write to about it. not because i am ashamed or trying to portray myself in the best light. i write about the good because at the end of the post...i feel good. better. positive and empowered. if you don't believe me...try it!
now, my family doesn't laugh at me, they ask me to get posting! also, the friendships i have made through this blog i truly treasure.
i'll stop the tangent now.
what i was trying to say is that, i have created a new space to write about our life. i have been working on it for a few days, because anyone that really knows me or follows this blog, knows that it takes me a long time to make decisions about EVERYTHING.
i enlisted the help of a few friends to help me come up with a new name that they thought worked well with what i was all about. i think it came down to being real, creativity, life and art. each of the four girls, including my sister, came up with so many good ideas that i wish i could start 5 more blogs just to use the titles. so, after many lists and phone calls back and forth...my dear, sweet and super talented friend jenn (i would link her, but i haven't persuaded her to begin a blog yet) came up with...
well, i will wait a few more days to unveil the new name that i LOVE and ADORE!
here is a hint though...
in even BIGGER news,
my baby is riding a big boy bike.
"i riding a big boy bike with (as he concentrates on getting his index and middle finger to stay up) only...two wheels, mama. no training wheels!"
he has been riding on one for a couple of weeks now and i have never posted any pictures, so here are a few of our baby conquering the sidewalk with just 'two wheels, mama!'
we are so proud of this little one. he is smart, athletic, sweet, caring, kind, and loving. he loves his mama and his mama loves him right back.
peyton squeals in delight as beckham rides his bike down the drive. "i taught beckham how to ride his bike with no training wheels!"
she is so proud of her baby brother.
i'm off to nurse this head cold...damn head colds.