Tuesday, November 4, 2008

i always i knew i wanted a little girl...

but i never knew how much i would love and adore having a little (baby) boy!!!
it is 4 days until beckham's birthday and it is starting again. that pain in my heart that reminds me of something loomimg in the near future. at times i can't put my finger on it, but i know that the few days preceding one of my baby's birthdays is bittersweet and that it always elicits nostalgia, which then makes me look through old photos, videos, read baby calendars,...
i never knew how much i wanted a little a boy until i had him. it was love at first sight, of course, right? i remember being pregnant with beckham while caring for my then two year old baby girl. i would think...how will i ever love anyone as much as i love peyton? i would ponder this daily until i just succumbed to the fact that i wouldn't. i would not love this baby as much as peyton. not because i didn't want to, but because it surely wasn't possible.
i knew it.
i was so wrong. when they put beckham in my arms for the first time, all of my fears melted away. i was in love with this baby and SO MUCH more than i ever thought possible. my heart swelled, stretched, and was never the same again. this all sounds a bit mushy...i know, but i'm in a mushy kind of mood, and i like to write what is on my mind and what is on my mind is this... my BABY is turning 2! can i still call him a baby?
beckham has the sweetest heart of any little guy i know. he has a smile on his face most of the time, he is laid back, he is SO loving, caring, soft, smart, eager to learn, wants to be just like his sister (much to the dismay of his daddy...dress-up and tea parties are a couple of beck's favorite things to do!) he loves to golf, watch football on TV, make us proud, give us kisses just because...
the list of what makes us love this boy so much goes on and on. i am desperately in love with this child and i thank God every single night for blessing us with this little angel of a boy. we are so lucky. so, so, so, lucky!
life is so sweet right now...even with this poopy economy;0
PS. i forgot to mention that he is extremely polite. he says, "Thank you, mama!" for anything i do for him. even if it is something as mundane as opening the car door for him to get out, or helping him blow his nose!!! he amazes us everyday.
xoxo
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mr. independant

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love this serious face. we don't see it very often though.

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beckham letting peyton 'drag' him around the neighborhood!
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one afternoon, i walked from the kitchen into the livingroom. this is what i saw...he didn't move for atleast a minute. i ran for my camera and sat ready to catch him catching me catching him!
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this was taken late at night when he should have been in bed, but we played instead.
so glad we did.
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yup...i walked into the foyer to find him sitting on a pumpkin while watching the rain fall.
yes, his 2nd birthday is creeping upon us, but to me, i am just a mommy to the best little ONE year old in the whole world...!!!
we love you beckham.
DOES ANYONE KNOW WHY I CAN'T DOUBLE SPACE BETWEEN PARAGRAPHS???
I WENT THROUGH BLOG HELP, TRIED AND TRIED, BUT IT STAYS THE WAY IT IS.

4 comments:

Kelly said...

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the ones from behind!! So adorable! And the ones with him holding hands with P are too cute for words!! Great pictures, great editing, great love in these! Oh, that smile is so endearing! Love those brown eyes too! What a love!!

Julie Frizzi said...

You inspire me..............gotta get with it here.........Love your pics...............

Steph C said...

you are awesome at taking pictures! He is adorable Heidi:) I can't believe he will be two either! That is crazy! Time goes by so fast. xoxox

Tisha said...

your little guy is ADORABLE! i love the his name too. great pictures and editing. All the women of naples are so creative!